Seriously. This lugubrious self destructive bent must come to an end. Look outside. The sun is shining, there are lambs frolicking on the lawn chasing after butterflies, there’s warm porridge on the table. Dewy eyed rodents dart hither and yonder, scampering at my feet and tickling my toes as I embrace the lush greenness that is life. I am so thankful for the simple things. I have been given so much and yet I have a tendency to squander it all for the sake of….. what?
And today I get to work at the library! This is an opportunity for growth and sharing the love. The public provides endless learning opportunities, as does the challenged staff that I must work with. I’m taking this bull by the horns and turning that frown upside down, mister. I hear the bells a’ringin…. Hallelujah! Cobwebs are clearing as I type. Life is beautiful and so am I. Just for those of you who read that last post and thought I was done – I’m not.
June 22, 2009 at 3:41 pm
Trying not to hear sarcasm in this, but your last statement is the clearest, so probably not. I hope your days get brighter and I feel both ways about the public. Sometimes they are amazing and motivate me to want to be a better librarian and other days they make me want to run far away and never enter a library again. Luckily the latter is fewer and far between.
June 22, 2009 at 6:35 pm
I actually look forward to work lately, as my personal life has been not so hot. Or is that not glaringly apparent by my depressive posts??
June 22, 2009 at 7:48 pm
I guess that is why I keep wishing I could stay home. Home life is grand (aside from my messy tendency) and work is kind of a challenge lately. I hope things get better for you soon. You deserve a break from the madness.
June 22, 2009 at 10:15 pm
Thanks Jessi…. I create most of it myself. I have the info. Just have trouble putting it into action.